“All that I am, or hope to be”

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a literal push.

i promise, mom, i'll make you proud.
i'll be the best kid a parent can ever ask for.
the child a mother would want to tell the world about.
and if my future is really bright,
i'll even help my aunts and uncles.
and they'll be greatful, and you'll be so proud,
your heart will feel like it'll burst out of your chest.
i owe so much to you and dad,
i'll make sure i pay it back.
i'll make sure you feel it all worthwhile,
all the heartache and money spent.

i'll do everything i can starting from NOW.

conflicts begin from your mouth,
and ends in my heart.

despite some truth on the previous post on the horoscope compatibility,
i'm positive. it's gonna be one helluva challenge to train myself to control my emotions,
and one helluva challenge for you to train your bluntness.

consciousness and objectivity. an outstanding spiritual and psychological growth.

and if i'm like this and you're like that,
the best metaphor in any war, would be,
'i drive, you shoot'

cus you're playful, idealistic. you're full of unsolicited opinion.
i'm executive, hardworking, little nonsense and purpusefully directed.
but we are always both fully aware of people's direct intent.
you know you're always out of control inside, but you know you're special.
and i'm best at putting the damaged at the back seat.

i drive, you shoot.

you can be sequestered.
i'll sweetly declare the rules, you abide, and i'll give you a wonderful environment of comforting love.
win win situation

and i know its complicated
but im a loser in love, baby
raise a glass to mend all the broken hearts
of all my wrecked up friends

your cigarette stained lies

Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted.

Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family

In relationships, Cancers, the most nurturing sign of the zodiac, seek a secure nest. They are best involved with someone who understands their creativity and will accept them for what they are, moods and all. Because their emotions are so powerful, they seek a partner who is stable and responsive, while at the same time understanding of their intermittent need for solitude, alternating with a gregarious desire for companionship and stimulation.


Although they present a hard shell to the outside world, Cancers are sensitive and caring by nature. As a lover, Cancers seek security and fidelity. Cancers can be deeply wounded if the one they care for betrays their trust (which is never given lightly). Cancers are poetic and romantic and extremely sensual. When with a lover they trust, both they and their mate will flourish.



. The detached feelings of the Archer are completely opposite to the deep, intense emotions of the Crab.
Though, in the initial stages, she may feel attracted to his outgoing and adventurous personality, but with time, too much of all this will start getting on her nerves. Even her need of feeling protected may not be met, since he doesn't like to be pinned down and may be too busy exploring new things in life. He is also flirtatious by nature and this will make her more insecure. Though the sparks will fly in this love match too, you cannot be sure whether they will be of romance or fights.

One innocent, but blunt comment from Sadge goes straight to the heart of an exposed Crab.

Sadge has a light nature, free of emotional underpinnings, while Cancer feels its way through things.

Sagittarius is daring, you need security and stability and (s)he can't offer them to you. Adventure? Yes, as much as possible. One night passion? Yes, of course! What about a steady relationship, peaceful, deep, lasting love? No. You live for the future, you want a home and a family and you try to save some money. Sagittarius lives the present moment. (S)He'll get bored very soon and look for new adventures, while you, dear Cancer, will go even deeper in your shell.

 Outgoing Sagittarius can open intellectual vistas for imaginative Cancer, but unfortunately Sagittarius won't give Cancer the security in love that it always needs.

sagittarius & cancer
bad combi =<
every paragraph from a diff astrological site



weird thing is, its all kinda true.
but still, let's not believe in this.

In addition, outspoken Sagittarius's bluntness continually wounds sensitive Cancer.
Better friends than lovers.

Better friends than lovers.






Better friends than lovers.




Better friends than lovers.





Better friends than lovers.




I LOVE YOU EHEHEHEHHE

flawed.

i feel ugly to the point that i'm not worth the nice unworn clothes i have in my wardrobe.
so overflowing with things.
so many unworn, unwashed, with tags on.

i should sell them.
and earn some money.

dullness has kicked in, say hello.
...
.....

......hello?

what?
my bf is awesome.

keyword: ilu - i love us



this cheered me up because, we promised to stay as best friends after breakin up.
its still there. least we're still friends, even though seperate lives.

Hakeem says:yo
what happen babe?
you sad, i also sad.


but all i really want, is to feel his hands again, his scent, his endless eyelashes, his loving embrace, my boyfriend, bestfriend, brother, lover. THAT will make everything better. i'm sorry love, please, i want things as before.
r<3a

one of god's best creations for the health-junkie-calorie-watching people would be mushrooms.
oh, mushrooms.
boiled, baked, fried, sauteed, raw....
why didn't i realise of your gift earlier on?
mmm, mushrooms.
low in calories, high in benefits!