“All that I am, or hope to be”

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i'd make the world have a disease
and i'd be the first vaccinated.

and then i'd kill everyone
isn't that pure awesome?

oh blood. blood blood. red.blood.blood.

just what is hurt now?

is it a cut?


a wound?


or being pulled apart, stuck in the middle, pained from every silent tug?


just what is hurt?
who will understand?

am i still sane?



YOU PUT YOUR PUDDING IN YOUR CUP

CUS YOU CANT PUT YOUR CUP IN YOUR PUDDING

i

will always love you



I AM.

ANXIOUS.

recently i've bought this make-up product called BellaPierre, and i was given loads of discounts so, as promised, (i need all possible good karma points for O's) i shall promote BellaPierre for the lady.




Bella Pierre produces mineral make up, which is make up that's actually good for the skin! It doesn't contain talc or random chemicals that may result in breakouts and oily skin, in fact, you can put it on your skin for treating acne!

BellaPierre contains products from the Earth only, (of course not from outta space), and it's perfect for flawless skin! (cliche)



So anyway, BellaPierre also do makeovers! So, if you want a makeover, say for prom night, or a special date, go to BellaPierre! It may not be cheap, but imagine, MAKEUP THAT IS GOOD FOR YOUR SKIN!

non drying non cakey not tested on animals oil control shine free natural make up!

CONTACT ME, so i can tell you where to purchase Bella's products, and more about the makeover. =)

O'S BEGINS TODAY.
THE LONG AWAITED MOMENT.
PRAY FOR ME PEOPLE.
YOU KNOW ILY.

special thanks to those who wished me,
feat., Ashraff, Darling Farel, Hunney Syazwan, Hakeem, Darling Louis, Donaldson, Ridwan, Asz, Sayang Shayy, Fiqqy, Dinah, Azri, Sayang Dee, Shazni, Darling Farhad, Fauzi, Fafa, Sayang Erin, Remee, Hunney Reece, Some guy idk called Allexy, and all the rest i failed to mention, THANKS.

Goodluck to all my be<3ed classmates, my Rangers & friends who are also similarly candidates for o levels. You will do your best!

So nervous im shakin!

first i was afraid, i was petrified, thinking i couldnt live without you by my side, after spending nights thinking how you did along, i grew strong, i learnt how to carry on.

NOW YOURE BACK.
FROM OUTTA SPACE.

not that lonely little person still loving you~


<3 M.B.

When passions a prison, you cant break free



23 october.
its been 4months, 7 days.

Trust me, nothing replaced. I know i'm naive for this. I don't want him back
I want what he gave.

Used to.

time to forget what i want. i want nothing now.

i didnt check my phone today. everything stood as still as rocks.
i tried studying, major mindblock.

trying has never been so difficult.

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if they hurt you they hurt me too.
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this goes to the ones i love (you know who you are)

to think i'd leave your side baby, you know me better than that.

its strange how your perspective of people changes within one mistake done. mmm, days are flying fast. I cant wait to run free from all this O level pressure. I need my Rangers, my HKs, my friends, sayangs and my darlings.

No love though.

And to someone out there;
Hey i'm sorry. I know its cowardly of me to apologise here and not in other forms, but you know... I dont want to see your response. I don't wanna see your reply ever ever again. Sometimes i feel like screaming for you, sometimes i feel like hunting you down and just beg for you or something. But sometimes ended the other day. I won't do that anymore. And why did you text message my friend? What did you want from her? I dont know how to say this, but if you're gonna go, just completely go already. You taught me one helluva lesson, and that's something i won't forget. But anyway, i hope your life will strive forward. I mean this.

Im sorry for everything i said.
And everything i didn't.

i wanna change blogskin after 3rd week of Os, because it just isnt my personality.

Sometimes love's like that. We need to do something real fun for it to really begin. If it can.
beauty at every oppurtunity
I am applying for RP for poly next year.
(provided i dont move, 50-50 chance)
Yes RP, because
#1; NEAR

#2; FRIENDS (Fad's there =p so is Asz[even tho graduating] Siq, Potential Bandmates[kei theory] and all other beloved many many people)

#3; ITS STILL A SCHOOL. I STILL LEARN.

So yaye.
Biomedical science = 22points.
Biotechnology = 26 points.
Pharmaceutical Science = 24 points

Not using science though.
I aim to get , at least below 17.
Because I have to beat Fad, and hopefully he'd switch my Omnia with his 3GS.
AYE AYE AYE. No need to get so low, though the lower i get the better, i guess. But RP is a 100% confirmed choice because during my two-hour lunch break i can get home watch some TV and change and i can walk to school saving money and i can eat at home save money and the saved money can be used to spend on more useful things like clothes, shoes, travelling, cosmetics, for treating friends on ocassion and to get my weekly red packs.

Rynn, dream, this dream will come true.

if you dont like me, i'll leave you alone. nothing changes without your existence. youre just another person.

Yesterday i met Fad, he taught me some physics which is, thank god, productive. Thank you sooo much Fad and i hope we'll meet up again soon. Oh and p.s. if youre gonna get a Scrambler, well, remember my need of height =p

Today i tried studying, a little in the morning, then took Piqs out because she was begging for it. Turns out it wasn't a very good idea, since she peed. ON ME. Lucky day?

Lucky indeed.

Once home i continued my boring assessments, then proceeded to text messaging and ending up in a fight with someone, and then i ended up here.

Pause.
I shall go check my phone again now.

See i went to cut my hair, and it turned out pretty horrid.

And dee here, as you can refer to from my tagboard, mocked me. She was, after all, the one who instructed supposingly proffessional hairdresser how to cut my hair. Gigglish and ticklish her words were, and my hair is now just as giggly and tickly.

But alas and behold. Take a deep breath dee cus this will hurt hehe.

YOU SEE,

for someone to mock my new ugly hair,
i pretty much expect theirs to be good.

BUT NOOOOO.

I dont have a picture of dee's new haircut, but people, i can find examples and describe to you.
(google engine = handy)

firstly it is dyed RED.
YES PEOPLE RED. LIKE BROWNISH RED BUT MOSTLY RED.
Like a wannabe redhead.
THEN.
it is extremely frizzy. INTENTIONALLY FRIZZY.
gawd dee i dont get it. people want defrizzed hair, you frizz em up!

if you can't imagine, then here's a close replica of Dee's head.



only its redder and less blonde, shorter and more frizzy and fly-ey and fluffy.
yknow dee, sometimes you remind me of a poor ol' puppy.

HAHAHA, beat that girl!
(no offence dee. i know youre getting it fixed the day after tomorrow. so just in case,)

HOWEVER THANK GOD SHES FIXING IT THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW.
=)

ZIMMY,
THANK YOU
FOR MAKING ME SO MUCH STRONGER.
last night PROVED how much we should be apart.


so let go, let go, just get in, its all amazing, its alright, cus' there's beauty in the breakdown.

friend: I have a cert in kissing, a diploma in caring and a degree in loving. Any job availabilities for me?

Swear to god its so funnily corny and cute.
haha.

eh farel.

you suck.
=)

FAAAD THANK YOU THANK YOU.






I WANNA ADOPT A PAIR OF ALBINO CUBS.

I can't bare thinking of the past. Even though it haunts me. Let it go and be just one bad memory, and pretend nobody cares. I dont wish to remember what happened, the tragedy. Regrets only for you, sorry for everything. It was not on purpose. Maybe youre right. We're not the right match.

cus i'm looking for my friend
now i've got you, got you...

Today, I got an email from the company that manages my Cat's microchip informing me that I had to update my information that had been entered by the local Humane Society. Apparently, they listed my cat "Coral" as the owner, and me as the pet. To change it, they needed the cat's signature. FML

Times i feel happy being different.

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon the beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me,

You Picked Me.

btw, happy celebrating for the done-and-over-with-it N level students. Welcome home Mardeana, happy graduating 3rd year Poly students, all the best for O level candidates and Erin&Hakeem, PLEASE keep staying together. Oh and happy Patch =)

Gum-ache.

Brgh, i hate you so much now. Nevermind, 5 more days to tolerate your presence in school. After that, BYE. I dont care about you anymore. Arsehole. Men. Can't wait to leave.

Study time. (yes, i have mutated to geeko-nerdiefortheolevelsake)

you're like a drizzle.

partially warm, usually cold, partly ongoing, maybe stopping, never complete, may drag for ages, sticky, meaningless, bright and dark, amusingly dull and all other contradictions within comprehension.

i want home.